An Open Letter to my Now Ex-Husband

I read Michael Cheshire’s lovely, honest & sweetly funny post “An Open Letter to my Now Ex-Wife”  today with tears in my eyes. His sentiments on the day his divorce was finalized echoed so many of my own feelings towards my ex that I was mulling what I would say in my own open letter. In many ways, Divorce Doula is an ongoing open letter to my ex and our children, a place to share my experiences as a single parent and a tool to help me sort through the complicated emotions of divorce.

But if I am being honest, this blog is really my way of saying thank you to my ex husband. To say in writing all of the things that I can’t say in person. It has been cathartic for me to find and release the words, regardless of whether he reads them or not.

The first piece I ever posted on this blog was titled “The World’s Best Ex-Husband.” That was over two years ago, and I still believe it. We have two highly intelligent, carefree, well adjusted young men that are a testament to our co-parenting commitment. Open communication and shared love for Our Two have helped establish their continued safety and happiness. My letter to my ex would start like this:

Firstly, I’d like to thank you for always being respectful towards me in front of our children. For never saying hateful, demeaning, negative things about me within earshot that might make them think that I am anything less than the Perfect Mother. I’m sure they’ll have plenty of time to figure out that I’m not perfect on their own.

Thank you for learning from our mistakes and forming a lasting, loving relationship with someone else. You deserve to be happy and in a relationship with someone who shares your passions. She is a lucky woman to have you in her life.

Thank you for giving me permission to discuss our marriage, separation and divorce and current relationship on this blog. When I told you that I wanted to write our story, you were supportive and asked only that I would take down anything you found offensive, hurtful or untrue. You haven’t asked for a single word to be removed so I guess I’m doing OK.

Thank you for always allowing me to talk to our children, regardless of whose “time” it is. I would never deny you the opportunity to connect with our boys and I appreciate that you provide me the same access. Our boys will only benefit from knowing that we are both only a phone call or FaceTime away.

Thank you for giving me the freedom to parent the way I know best. To trust my instincts as a mother and  for being by my side when they need us to advocate for them.

Thank you for teaching our children about their heritage and allowing me to celebrate the High Holidays with you. I happily share fond & loving memories of your mother with them and am so proud that you are instructing them in her passion for cooking, her love for life. And thank you for staying close with my family & always remembering their birthdays. It means a lot to them.

Thank you for not judging me or pitying me for my bad choices. God knows that there have been some doozies. You remain the benchmark by which I measure all men and I’m not sure whether I should thank you or curse you for my extraordinarily high standards.

Thank you for showing me Paris, New York, Milan and Maui. You can always thank me later for introducing you to Halifax.

At our wedding I told you that half of the person I had become was because of you. But after spending 15 years with you, and four years apart, I am twice the person I ever thought I could be.Thank you for giving Our Two their math skills, their dry sense of humour and their sweet smiles.

They are half you, half me & the best of what we were.


About Pamela

I’m a Vancouver-based divorced mother of two awesome boys embarking on a respectful, amicable and often humorous co-parenting adventure with their father. By day, I'm a publicist for good causes + companies at

12 Responses to An Open Letter to my Now Ex-Husband

  1. Lisa R. Petty September 26, 2014 at 9:06 pm #

    This really made me tear up and now I look like a raccoon. Darn you and your boobs.

    • Pamela September 28, 2014 at 6:26 pm #

      Thanks, Lisa! Sorry about the raccoon eyes but glad you loved it. And glad you love me (and my boobs!) xo

  2. Jody September 26, 2014 at 10:58 pm #

    Amazing! I am in awe of your commitment to your children – both you and your ex. And that you can see the best of each other in your kids. xoxo

    • Pamela September 28, 2014 at 6:26 pm #

      Thanks, Jody. xo

  3. Liv September 28, 2014 at 10:43 am #

    I am in awe of your superior coparenting abilities. My letter to my exhusband would never look like that – and would likely include some expletives. Well done.

  4. MOM September 28, 2014 at 5:58 pm #

    WOW very well written I had to read a few times as the tears blurred my vision. Now move forward and find that special person too!!!

  5. Pamela September 28, 2014 at 6:27 pm #

    Thanks, Mom. All in good time… xo

  6. Sarah at Journeys of The Zoo October 10, 2014 at 1:20 am #

    I’m so happy to read that you know how special your husband, kids and you are. At the end of the day, they’re the people whose opinions matter the most. Rock on.

    Besos, Sarah

  7. Marlene Bailey October 19, 2014 at 12:25 pm #

    So beautifully written Pam.

    You and your ex have done such a wonderful job with eachother and co-parenting your boys. I can’t stop crying after reading this!


  8. Kardel October 23, 2014 at 4:06 pm #

    I have read this over and over and truly hope that I can one day have a relationship like this one if my marriage doesn’t survive.
    We has just left me, separated 1 month now, and we are going to therapy every week. But I honestly don’t feel the hope that he wants to make it work.
    So reading this was an extremely comforting and hopeful glimpse into what my future could be if I let go of my anger and feelings of rejection.
    Thank you so much

  9. Jess November 22, 2014 at 12:42 pm #

    Just gorgeous, in all the right ways… You two are humanity, defined. xxx+o

    • Pamela December 6, 2014 at 7:45 pm #

      Thank you, Jess. xo

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